I posted the following content in a social
group. A good number of people acknowledged it as their confession.
My glorious sexuality! My being was created in the image of God and my
sexuality is an integral part of my being. My sexuality shines when my being is
in loving union with God. In such a state, the love of God becomes incarnate in
me for your sake. But alas, this is not so between you and me.
I am in a
relationship with you and my ego is using my sexuality to manipulate you in
this relationship. As I try to manipulate you, to shape this relationship
according to my agenda, you are resisting by also trying to manipulate me with
your sexuality. And so we are at war but we call it love. We are blind to the
dysfunction in our relationship. In this war, I am determined to out-manipulate
you. However, your resistance has been frustrating me. Canâ€™t you see that I
have a wonderful plan for your life? Why canâ€™t you just allow me to program
your life with it? The idol here is not an object. I am trying to play God in
your life. I am the idol. This is the ultimate idolatry but I do not know.
resisting my manipulation until I became angry towards you. I have been angry
at the point of your resistance. You still did not yield to me and my anger
turned to wrath. My fury was no longer at the point of your resistance. Other
things you did in our relationship fed my wrath. This was how my wrath turned
to malice and it was in malice that I desired to harm you in some way. So I
slandered you. I denied your humanity. I became violent either in words or
actions. The truth is that I excuse my violence because I have already
possessive, and destructive ego started with attempting to manipulate you with
my sexuality. Now I have ended up being violent towards you.